What the 4th July means to me

I am an Australian but the 4th July still represents freedom and independence to me. Six years ago in a place far, far away from here (London), I was living a much different life that the one I live today. In the years since, I have lived a lifetime. Last year alone was the year that I achieved a whole raft of life goals that can take decades to accomplish.

Every year at this time, I find myself quite introspective on the past, how far I’ve come and what lies in wait for me in the year ahead. In 2012, I wrote a Facebook status,

“Happy independence day. It’s hard to believe that it’s been 12 months since I made the decision to leave, but I know that I made the right decision to do so. I’ve had so many adventures since and there are many more to come. Each day has its own challenges, but I’m strong, beautiful and intelligent and I will always succeed in whatever I put my mind to, so I am not afraid. Lots of love to everyone who has been there for me in some way – it is with your support that I move in a forward direction with each decision that I make.”

That status says it all and is so true year in, year out. In 2015, I wrote another Facebook status,

“Today I am grateful for the decisions that I’ve made in my life that have brought me to now.”

The second status represents my own personal outlook every day of the year really. I am accountable for every decision I make.

This is just a short blog to commemorate a day that holds a place dear in my heart. A day that my life started all over again. A day that I actually started on my drastically revised path to become the woman that I am today. Each day, another step is taken towards my growth as a person, as a woman, as a wife, as a mother.

I have really struggled this last week and if I’m truly honest, this day every year since 2011 is usually surrounded by a time of quiet introspection, self-reflection and a bit of a review of the year that was. It usually triggers a bit of a period of depression resulting in the refocusing of my energies into more productive pass times and looking to the year ahead.

I usually read back over the blog I wrote during this period of time and think about how far I’ve come.

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